April 1, 2010
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My Bad
So I’m in a predicament. I know I’m a bad person for this, but I led this guy on, because I missed the attention. Usually, when I play, things never lead this far, but this one has gotten farther than I ever would have expected. He’s now waiting for me to decide when I’m ready to date. I’m not ready. I’m not attracted to him, physically and mentally. I’m not willing to date him.
But I guess I’m terrible at turning down people I’ve already gotten to know personally, and someone who I know I’m somewhat obligated to. The thing is, I missed cuddling, so I allowed myself to cuddle with him. Then he made a move. I pulled away, but he assured me that it wasn’t going to be a one-night hookup and that he was willing to go as slow as possible. We kissed, it wasn’t great, and then we stopped to talk. I told him I wasn’t looking for a relationship and that he shouldn’t expect anything out of this. However, this have progressed. He comes to see me every night, or he asks me to come see him, and we always end up cuddling. I know he likes me, and he’s still waiting. I’m not. And I’m going to have to break it to him. After all my leading on, I feel terrible.
My friends say he’s so nice and that I will come to like him. I should date him because he’ll be so good to me. But there’s no passion there. No attraction. Nothing.
So I’m going to have to break it to him soon. We live in the same building, we have some of the same friends, we have class together, and it’ll surely be awkward for a while. But what needs to be done needs to be done. And I sure as hell cannot let this go on any longer.
Comments (16)
Your friend sounds typical and you sound typical.
Ooo, looks like you got a visit from the neverbebeat troll.
Don’t be an asshole neverbebeat. so fcking annoying.Anyway, I mean things like this happen. Doesn’t make you a bad person.But it does put you in a bad light. He’ll definitely hold it against you for a while, eek.But end things asap. I know that you know that.Just be real about it like you are on this entry. Where do you dorm btw? haha. If you told me sorry I forgot. and I see that you don’t like to sleep to early either
mmm… April Fools!!! Oh wait, you’re serious…A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. If you’re steam-rolling towards an unwanted relationship while monsieur-of-mass-admirance-por-tu is all total consumate love well, you said it best. Time to kick the habit before things get dangerous.
You shouldn’t have let him kiss you, that probably made things worse. It progressed see.
yeah…. why torture a guy for?
end it, move on. it’s only the end of one chapter, not your life story
at least you know what needs to be done. just try not to hurt the boy too much…
ALL girls lead guys on. And most Asian girls would say some complacent ass shit like your friend did. This isn’t a dilemma, it’s everyday life. Those people that talk shit about what I said probably didn’t even read your entry.
@CHRiSTiNE_x - and you’re just mad because i found out your secret identity.http://suhock.net/xanga/logs/disp.php?u=neverbebeat&f_addr=216.165.19.230
Short term pain is better than long term pain.
Umm.. feel sad for the guy. But at the same time, if you not have any feeling, why keep giving him hope.@CHRiSTiNE_x - is very correct on her comments.. I do hope this friendship will still be there…..
LOLOL that totally sounds like the dilemma I’ve been in for 4 months. I don’t know if shes just leading me on and she tells me that she isn’t ready for a relationship;; and we cuddle and kiss too ><. And now i feel like i want to end whatever me and her have but it feels like we’ve gotten closer
oh give me some advice
End it now before the guilt gets to you.
@CHRiSTiNE_x - i dorm in brittany!and as for everyone else, i think i know i need to end it. thus why i said it in the blog. no need for nagging. i was just venting a bit. comments like these make me want to just use xanga for a diary instead.
story of my life, I actually want the girl to tell me there’s no future in it so I can move on but she always dodges the question and leave me like “hm?”.