April 23, 2010

• Heh…

  So I ended up continuing things with that boy…. And now we’re dating.  I guess my friends were right.  He did grow on me.  It’s scary how other people know you more than yourself.  I was so insistent that it wasn’t going to happen, and lo and behold, it did. 

  To profile him quickly: he literally is the epitome of a nice guy.  However, he isn’t some sort of pansy, although he caters to my every whim.  He’s aggressive in the way that when he wants to see me or if he wants to kiss me, he’s not afraid of looking clingy or horny.  It’s really hard to explain, but it’s quite a wonderful combination. 

  But what I’ve noticed about myself is that in relationships, I tend to get really self-conscious.  Not necessarily about my appearance, but rather mostly my actions.  I worry if I’m taking the right steps, if I’m pushing him away, if I’m being to clingy, if I’m being overly sexual, if I’m portraying myself the right way.  I mean all these things highly affect how the relationship turns out. 

  Relationships are like investments.  You don’t invest into a relationship that you don’t have faith in, and you have high hopes.  You hope for the best, and you hope that what you did was the right choice.  Most importantly, you hope that whatever you do helps the relationship grow, rather than diminish.

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