April 2, 2010
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Thoughts to End the Night
As for my last entry, I didn’t need a bunch of comments telling me that I needed to end it. I said it in my entry. Obviously, I know. There was no need for haughty ass comments from everyone telling me what to do like I’m oblivious to my own actions. Thanks though.
This night ended pretty shitty. Long story, but the happenings of today has got me reflecting on the status of my own life. I get into these bouts of feeling sorry for myself, not knowing what to do, and feeling like I don’t own up to much. I just think about how I wish things were and how things used to be and how much I liked it. It’s days like these that I wish my ex really was who he said he was, so that we could’ve had a happy relationship. Honestly, if it wasn’t for all the bullshit, that would’ve been my ideal relationship, with all the passion and chemistry (both physical and mental) that we had. I feel like I’ll never find a relationship that’s even comparable. It’s days like this that I feel inferior to my friends, that I can get left behind, that I go unnoticed. I start to worry about what I’m doing with my life, if I’m going to be successful, and if its going to turn out the way it will.
I’m just being a drama queen. I need to get over myself.
Comments (11)
Don’t feel bad.The exact same thing happened to me last year.
I’m going to say that I’ve been through similar, except for the fact that I met a girl who was pretty much perfect in every way possible, but her boyfriend was my friend, so I have to live a life of constantly dating other women that are less superior. It disappoints me too, but I try not to think about it.What I suggest you should do, is get out of your rut, and keep your mind occupied on something else. Oh don’t worry, I’m not going to tell you it is easy, because it won’t be. I can’t guarantee that you’ll totally forget about him, because you won’t. Just focus on being successful. I’m sure that’s what your family wants. It’s just time to refocus your priorities.
yeah, don’t be a drama queen!! look at the bright side, you are not longing living in the middle of nowhere!
everyone gets that way sometimes. but all you can do is hope it passes and try your best to make things better. hope you feel better soon.
I can see from your writing that you seem to know what you’re doing.
/patpat
don’t worry too much. I think we r all drama queen sometimes~ u’ll get through it~
“Our life is looking forward or its looking back. That’s it. That’s our life. Where’s the moment?” – Al Pacino in ‘Glengarry Glen Ross’
keep that head up
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